I feel so inadequate.
I don’t want to be a downer or anything, but I’m just trying to be honest. That’s (half of) the whole point of this blog: to be real and to find truth. So I’ll start with being real. Here goes.
I feel so inadequate. Just when I think that I’ve got something good going, I see someone else who is doing it about twelve million times better than me. And I’m like, “What’s the point? What am I even doing??” It’s so so so so difficult to not just give up right then and there. After all, what do I have to say that someone else couldn’t say better than me? (Right now the answer to that question feels a lot like: NOTHING.) What do I have to give that someone else isn’t already working towards? (Again, nothing.) So what is the point?
I keep hearing from friends and other important people that “no one can say it the way you can” and other encouraging-type things, but part of me just can’t really believe it. How am I so special? How do I have a way of saying something that no one else has figured out?
Guys, I know it’s hard to believe, but I’m just a person.
See, I know the right answers. I am special because I am created in the image of God. I have something to say because He gives me something to say that’s meaningful.
But knowing the right answers and understanding the right answers are different. I have to get these negative thoughts out so that I can take a step back from them, evaluate, and then let Truth address each one.
Tune in next time to read Part 2, where I will somehow find the truth that combats all of these raw thoughts of “I am not enough”.